I feel discomfort. All is right in my world. I have good people in my life, but since I am always searching for more healing you have to allow the feelings to come up. The feelings are uncomfortable. It is like a pit of anxiety in my solar plexus. My last blog I had a nervous/panic in a group setting while doing a reading. I persevered through it and came up well, but my own self was a mess. Why? Why did I get into such a crazy nervous pile of goo when I literally was with safe and kind people?
My stillness with spirit and the conclusion is that I have buried my emotions. I have avoided conflict in so many ways so that I could be in that comfortable state of peace and calm. I noticed that I was feeling overwhelmed and had anxiety that I had not seen since the kids were a lot younger like 10-12 years ago. I haven’t been blogging very much and though I don’t have much of an audience it always felt better to tell my stories out in the open. I suppose it was a chance to release the things that no one wants to hear in every day conversations. But, now I realize that everything has been bottled up and this is how I got started letting it out in my blog posts again.
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